Final Semester Week 0

Lots of unhappiness even though 2011 has only embarked into it's first month . Right now, I think I knw how it feels, when he says he felt that he didnt think he made any close friends in his 4 yrs. Not to say, I dont, I have some. But I just wanna voice out how i feel about some people who are constantly seeking for people who r beneficial and will only be friends with you if u possess some form of benefits to reap, or are just useful? sigh. pushing responsibility around and coming up with plenty of excuses. left out means left out quit giving excuses. 

That aside, have been really busy trying to get all 3 modules secured. Final semester, yet I'm not able to get the modules I want, bidded till round 3B but still, 2 modules short. 

Modules Wish List: 

1. Topics of Urban Planning

2. Korean 1

3. New Media 1101E

Module outcome after 3 rounds of bidding, and only after appealing countless times and looking for teachers to plead for modules. I got this:

1. Topics of Urban Planning

2. New Media 1101E

3. Introduction to Computing. 

I cant believe I am even taking a computing module. It's simply unbelievable! I think I need all the luck I can have to score in this module. =P just gotta try at making websites and wearing those geeky specs and talk about hardwares and html? hmmmm....

Dissertation is such a bother, seriously. Recently, a good girlfriend of mine told me that her friend came up with lots of definition for the acronym FYP aka dissertation. haha some were kinda vulgar, so I guess I will not say it here, just in case. maybe after I received my grade for it, i'll let the cat out of the bag. So, I am having the hardest time getting started with my dissertation. Everyone's at it, even bf and kelly. sigh...i just find it soo difficult to focus on dissertation because i hate doing things i dislike. oh well, gotta face it, and get down to serious work (yeah right :| )

Career Fest will last 2 weeks, and we have to attend at least 4 sessions. The thought of having to work in less than 6 months is freaking me out. For now, I guess im not ready to go out into the work force. After this semester, it's working for LIFE. gosh, no more waking up at 1pm everyday, no more shopping/manicure/pedicure/tea/movie/jb in the DAY for LIFE. how's that! most people cant wait to stop school and work but i am the opposite, i dont want school to end!! 

but again i've got to face up to reality, attended 1 week of talks by real estate companies and concluded that im not ready. Most are looking for graduates with good academic results. 2nd lower good enough or not? Some provided really good incentives but i dont knw whether that's what I am looking for. oh well, 1 more week of career fest. I hope I'll be able to at least knw what kinda job i want. 

Last week in Oestrich Winkel

done with my last examination which turned out like crap. kept the lecture notes in my luggage just in case i need it again in Jan.

i've left Germany for now. will only be returning again in 2010 before going home for good. The last week in Germany was filled with goodbyes, everybody leaving for home. :( Zsofie and Yugandhar left first and then Audrey. It wasnt easy for us to say goodbye to each other, having lived together under one roof for almost 6 months. having dinners, parties, mugging everything under the same roof. sigh.... i dont wanna say goodbye! tear-filled goodbye. remembering the good & bad times we had together

somehow daljoon got cut off from the picture. but dont worry! haha i took an individual shot of u daljoon! 

anywhere with u

brrrrrrr.....really getting supa cold over here. for the record it's -1 degrees celsius and signs of light snowfall tomorrow morning! yay! snow

today isnt a really great day for me. ya AGAIN. never seem to be full of energy when im here. i am constantly feeling tired for some reason i dont know. felt really lazy the whole day, but i had to force myself to study hard this weekend. 3 exams next week. raaaar!

my hoilday travelling plan isnt going too well either. no trains from milan to paris! damn....and they're system is down and undergoing some rescheduling. -.- im praying very hard everyday for my paris tickets. =( im like uber stress over the whole travel plans + exams. like i said, i need to book tickets and hostels. which is nearly impossible for the xmas & new yr season. and i told u, anywhere will do, as long as im with u =) whole budget trip might just turn to a splurged holiday. and u said money spent on u is always well spent =)

exam results for RE economics and econometrics is out today and i got a disgusting E for it. it's still considered a pass in EBS but im so worried NUS might not accept it. boo hoooo i've no idea why i've only got 6/30 for my case study when liyin n yughandar submitted the same work as me and they got 19. booooo.
day not going well.

having a splitting headache. for now, i'll go to sleep and hopefully catch the snowfall tomorrow morning.

bad day.

module trouble

havent been blogging as much as i used to back in Singapore, coz im always soooo busy here for some reason that i dont know.

lately, i've been having lots of problems with module mapping and all. it's giving me a headache, real major headache. everytime when im planning to go away for a small trip, something will crop up. and i've got to send emails back to NUS. arghhhh hope this would come to an end and i'll get my proper schedule.

life could be simpler.

but, on the bright side, i have a great friend who nv fails to cheer me up when im down. thank you bfs! for all the silly stuff u say to make me feel better. =) smiley.

Why didnt you stay, MJ =(

sooo heartbreaking, watching Michael Jackson's Memorial.
Greatest Entertainer, that ever Lived in this World



Like A Comet Blazing 'Cross The Evening Sky
Gone Too Soon

"Smile, though your heart is aching"
-Charlie Chaplin-

Rest in Peace Michael

the day, the world cried
07/07/09

im so saddened when i heard the news this morning, how could it be?! i choose not to believe it, and switched the tv channel to CNA and then to MTV. boo hooo=(

i went online to youtube his songs to put on my blog, but i cant seem to find a perfect one =( ahhhhh why so sooon, i tot i could catch a glimpse of him when i go over to Europe this coming August. boo hoo =(

tribute to michael jackson, loved him since i was a baby! omg, i remember vividly, with joe, sarah, keith, we'll sit in front of the tv almost every weekend, and watch michael jackson LD and then we'll try to mimick his legendary moonwalk and smooth dance moves. and i still have the LD with me, all these years. we never get bored of that particular LD, and watch it again n again n again. undoubtly a legend.

and after so many years, we gathered at caderam's house one night and watch an upgraded version of michael jackson's LD, the DVD. surely the king of pop.

and of coz not forgeting his moonwalk



If You Wanna Make The WorldA Better Place, Take A Look At Yourself, And Then Make A Change

Shopping is cheaper than psychiatrist

how true is that? im not sure because i've been shopping incessantly.

shopping is prolly the best anti-depressant drug?

3 purchases online in 2 days.



(couldnt find the mv)

i need some answers, truthful, honest answers from u

but u nv seem to get it

from beginning to end.

u've closed the door on me last January, and

u've once again opened one of those wound i've been trying to close

really tired.

back then, we've talked about how we're gonna celebrate our 21st, and we made silly plans. now u're gonna turn 21.

You ask, are u coming? i cant give u an answer, my mind is in a mess now.

things arent the same as it was before, im no longer the one in your 21st plans.

until u know what u want.

u suck

Why do birds suddenly appear?

Everytime you are near,

Just like me, they long to be

Close to you


Why do stars fall down from the sky?

Everytime you walk by

Just like me, They long to be

Close to you
...

there is really an apple =)

erste papier

my first paper

and it really sucked! big time...im sooo emo and depress right now...boo hoooo

1st: i couldnt finish the paper on time

2nd: i left out last 2 qns which was almost 35marks...okay maybe not totally blank..but prolly a half page each

3rd: there's a first for everything, first time ever, not completing my paper...this first experience was miserable

ahhh emo la...becoming an emo bimbo....=(

luckily had ice cream @ Island Creamery with kelly, cad, nana, 2 eugs and bp...or else i dont know how my day was going to carry on! YES it's that serious!

ang: eh why u order 2 scoops when u cant even finish
me: huuuh? depress la...rawh!

next up...gossip girl...i've watched the latest episode of Gossip Girl!!! yippppeeee! haha made my day a tad bit better =)

and then i went to Tampines 1 just like every other singaporeans who love the new...it's quite a horrifying experience because there were soo many people! recession huh..there wasnt any place in restuarants and every other food outlet..no parking, no walking space, omg...

met up with BFF, Jed and Spoilt brat =)

and this is from my bestie: michie bestie...im so blessed to have u as a bestie!

i luv u tremendously much much much=)

i havent open the pack yet, but according to tyler...there's an apple in it..so sweet of u bestie=) and thanks to all who made my day today =) esp u bestie!

yes much luv!

the evening after my depressing defeat to the monster tester....

i decided that being there for kelly's dance concert was much more impt then being depress n emo...so i got up from my humble bed and rushed out to get her a Sunflower =) yes flowers are an essential for after concerts! *ahem*
it was such a bad day..it started raining when i had to get on the bus..and it was pouring! and what's worse i missed the bus! boo hooo..luckily i wasnt late to collect the tickets..or else i would have missed the show!
met zj, cad, nana and eug lee at UCC..darn the queue was LONG..but thank god we've got jianjian in the front..the rest who were behind the 150th person had to leave..no more tickets guys! =P

the concert was goooooood...this was the first time i saw dear kelly perform..and it was about being abused..and i think she did a great job...WELL DONE KELLY! =) i'll be looking forward for more of your concerts! we were very close to the performers...there wasnt really a stage and we had to sit on the floor..different experience altogether

after the concert it was suppose to be DIM SUM BUFFET lor.....but some people wasnt hungry..so we went to Swensens only to realise that the queue was so darn long too..we waited for almost 30mins but still no table...last resort....COFFEESHOP......whata drastic change of plansthe food was not bad la...but abit pricey for kopitiam...n this is the oh-so-good spring chicken kelly tooook

end of emo day =(

n i still wan my icecream BFS!
you promised...
=P

i am depress...really really depress...

i know it is soooo unlike me to be depress..but

YES i AM UBER DEPRESS =(

40 points?
wth..

depress depress depress.

i am so not use to losing/failing
spoilt.
yes i know.

Gossip Girlmy days with gossip girl are finally back! after a long long break..it has finally came back! just when i needed some destressing=) thanks to matthew and bfs for linking me to the latest episode...i feel so satisfied now having watched the latest one..yipeees=) i get contented with such simple things..there were new characters julian! oh he is oh-my-a-hottie..turns out Ms Carr is a bitch! and i finally manage to convince kok bout that fact..and Carter is back again..i think their running out of ideas..for a moment i tot serena and nate are going to get back tgt while vanessa goes for julian..but julian is GAY! *gasp* gays are cute. =P

Blogs have been reading a couple of blogs recently, and i must say..there is smth in jesmine's blog which struck me...quoted frm Jes "Do not do unto others what I don't want others to do unto me." i shall not elaborate that much further..becoz there are some things which are pretty obvious and upsetting..oh well..im happy with the way i am =)

Appreciationdeadlines are looming around the corner, and i've not have much time to rest, slack, and do things i wanna do..maybe i just have poor organisation skills=P procrastination seem to be in my blood..cant help it..what i find fascinating was..i learn to cherish the time i have left..esp travelling time..believe it or not..i walked 30mins home yesterday under the hot sun..becoz i find, that's the only 30mins in my day i can spend doing nothing at all but walk and think...once i reach home..it's just work work work booo...i use to hate travelling home by public transport back in the sec days, but right now it's pretty enriching..an excuse for me to well, ''slack!'' haha =P

and that's all for me tonight
stay happy=)

LOST!

im feeling very sian now becoz i lost a pair of my fav birkenstock
boo hooooooo=(

and i dont know how the hell did it get lost !
=(

i look normal on the outside when im around friends, busy with sch work. but my mind lingers off when im alone...

just like this morning, i was sitting at the busstop, waiting for the bus to arrive...but i was daydreaming all the while that i missed my bus...

what's on my mind?
my bestie.
i cant help it
you may think it's silly, but im thinking of what im gonna say when i see my bestie...will i break down? no no, i've got to be strong

im not suppose to see her until 49 days have passed because my ah ma just passed away too. it's some superstition thingy in which my mom is very particular of..
what kinda best friend am i huh?
i hope she'll understand, and im feeling very bad... 49 days is such a long long time

i read what she wrote on facebook, and tears started streaming down my cheeks. no matter how many times i read it, the same thing happens.

her mom is such a great person, a great mom, always understanding, patient and gentle.

i've been going to mich's place since sec 1, for tuition and for whatever reasons u can think of, her mom is always so welcoming, making sure we've got enough to eat, enough to drink, comfortable. She even cooked dinner for me...and mich n i will have that after chem tuition.. she helped us make our very first potato salad...she made mooncakes for us...

i'll definitely miss her dearly....

what a nightmarish week this had been for me...

and i wished time could just turn back, when everybody was happy, smiling, and living.

im very emo, and and still is...if u know me well enough, you'll prolly know i cry very easily..that's what caderam said

a week before today, daddy received a call, and immediately we rushed to the hospital, tears already streaming down my cheeks while we were still in the car..for the first time, i saw daddy tear...

mommy was concentrating n speeding down thomson road to get us there as fast as we could

we were too late when we got there, she was already gone..no last words, no one was there to see her off..ah mah died peacefully in her sleep, her heart stopped beating. after a year of fighting, she finally gave in...it was simply heart ranching when i saw her lying motionlessly on the hospital bed..i kept telling myself, "she'll come around! she'll come around"

the last time i saw her, she was still well, still able to talk, to smile like she always does when she sees me...without fail, she'll say "study hard peiru, my guai granddaughter" in hokkein..she'll always chase us home, ask daddy n mommy to go home and carry on with our own stuff, she was craving for mandarin orange, and insisted on having one..so i peeled one for her..nv had i knew, that was the last mandarin orange i peeled for her....

on Wednesday night, i received another piece of bad news..omg..i felt like my world has fallen apart..what's happening! am i still caught up in my nightmare..it seems like it will nv end..
life is so vulnerable...i've got to stay strong, not only for my parents, but also for my bestie...
to be there for her whenever she needs me...

always in my heart

one week has passed, and it's time to step out of the nightmare, and move on...
i keept repeating "cherish" because this week has taught me, the most impt thing in life, to cherish everyone around me, family n friends

i am very grateful to the wonderful friends i have, kelly, zijian, caderam, tyler, marcus and kok(BFS) for being there for me when i needed someone to talk to..
thanks for cheering me up with that clown face of yours=)

a solemn Valentine Day for me..

but thanks for all the flowers n card Izaac=)

it really made my dayremembering you from Singapore=)

Strong

tears.

cherish the ones u love, when u still can.

Bestie, stay strong, we'll get thru this tgt.

BFF

the 3 spoilt brats will always be there for you

life...

hey people...photos will be posted on facebook soon..i wont be posting it on my blog

no mood to blog anyway

cherish the ones you love...